And so, I am thirty.

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Since I’m still single, obviously, turning thirty is not a good thing. But I’m not going to focus on that.

It’s funny, the things you think will make you an adult, or make you feel like an adult. Back when I wrote this post, buying property seemed absolutely unattainable. Now, while I still rent instead of own…let’s just say owning is a much more realistic goal now. I live alone now, and while it’s awesome, it doesn’t really make me feel like an adult, either. And even though I have a full-time job and have steadily advanced in my company over the seven years I’ve worked there, that does nothing to make me feel adult, either.

But you know what does? The fact that I now sometimes sign my name with a scribble. When I was a kid, I hated it when adults did that and swore I never would. And now I do it.

There are plenty of things I thought I’d outgrow that I never did, though.

• I never got to like coffee. I’ve tried and I just don’t like the way it tastes.
• I still order chicken fingers in restaurants all the time.
• I love Disney movies and Disney in general and have lately been dying to go back to Disney World.
• Actually, I love amusement parks in general. Even kid rides like the merry-go-round.
• I still have stuffed animals on my bed. I can’t part with them.
• I can’t part with my basket full of Beanie Babies, either. They’re too cute.
• I’m super-nostalgic for all the TV shows I loved in my childhood. I sometimes watch Sesame Street clips on YouTube and I have Ghostwriter on DVD.
• Girl Meets World is on my DVR.
• Early to bed/early to rise is still not my thing. I’d much rather sleep until noon on weekends.
• Blowing bubbles and flying a kite outside sounds wonderful to me.
• I still hate shopping for clothes.
• However, I’ve been known to go into toy stores just to look around.
• I never manage to do laundry/put away laundry in an efficient manner.
• I still don’t have a nice watch. I wear this cheap waterproof digital watch from Target.
• Many nights I’d rather play board games than go out to a bar.

The weird thing I’ve noticed about getting older is that there are plenty of times when you feel old. You can’t understand why teenagers like some weird thing (like the Yo app—seriously, why?). You realize that you’re working with people born in the 90s. You realize you started high school sixteen years ago. But even if you feel old…you still might not feel like an adult.

Do you ever? Is this something that will never really happen and you just think it will?